"Talking
Trash, Talking Class: What's a Working Class Poetic, and Where Would I
Find One?"
by
Kathy Lou Schultz
photo by Jon Armstrong
for
my grandmothers:Donna Gene (Ewing) Manthey and
Christina
Katherina (Sanders) Schultz
I've spent years
trying to reconcile being a poet with being working class. Yet, walking
home from work one day it occurred to me, such a reconciliation is not
only improbable, it is also undesirable. My language comes out of, indeed
is exalted toward, the space created where these two identities refuse
to meld inside of me. In that messy, dangerous space the possibilities
of language are expanded.
What does a "working
class poem" look like?
How does it
sound?
How does it
behave?
What if I'm
"too intellectual," "too confident," "too experimental," "too fragmented"?
Growing up working
class has given me skills, perspectives, and knowledge which are a part
of every decision I make. Growing up working class taught me how to survive.
Growing up working class is part of my very breathing. How are "poetries
of identity" created? How are they made normative? When I say "working
class poem," "working class writer," what do you hear? Tillie Olson, Kevin
Magee, Mike Amnasan, Karen Brodine, Rebecca Harding Davis, Meridel Le
Sueur, Agnes Smedley, Dorothy Allison, Mike Davis, Carolyn Kay Steedman,
Barbara Smith.
And who? Who does
not survive in our language?
Anxiety is a sticky
substance infused with fear. Dollar for dollar. Or, for instance, poverty.
My own collusion in bourgeois appearances bleeding me dry. The need to
be seen or recognized outweighing other emotional vaunts.
This is the most
difficult essay I have ever not written, for as much time as I spend writing
it, I spend more not writing it, carrying it around knotted and unruly.
A discourse around
class and poetics is lacking, if not invisible. While it is now possible
to identify a trajectory of experimental women's writing, to inhabit a
vocabulary of gender and sexuality, references to class often remain just
that: mere codes. Several problematic issues arise both in the writing
of, and writing about, what we might call "working class poetry."
First, the drive
to create "poetries of identity" (a phrase I've been using for some time)
tends to solidify normalizing tendencies in terms of form, style, and
content, i.e. does a poem have to be narrative, "I"-based and "about"
work in order to be considered "working class"? Furthermore, drawing a
straight line between one's identity and one's poetics is problematic
at best and confuses the biographical information about the poet with
poetic works that genuinely seek to explore, unseat, complicate subjectivity.
The obvious point
to be made is that identities are infinitely mediated and complex; coming
from a particular class, race, gender is not--and should not be--the map
through which one can trace a trajectory toward a particular type of poetic
expression. That said, I still consider Lorine Niedecker (along with being
a great Modernist, experimental, American, woman writer) to be a great
working class writer. It is part of providing myself with a history.
Dear Hilda, Dear
Wallace, Dear Michael, Dear Frederick
Dear Marianne,
Dear ball and stick, Dear K, Dear K, Dear K, Dear K
A language of
provisional objects
A language of
hunger
The head of the
hammer
flying off and
cracking
Or a spade unable
to overturn
the solid earth
Does the word
"proletarian" refer?
See now, a figure
described as my grandmother crossing a room
Replace "I" with
"salt in a bag"
In the face of
my parents' illiteracy
all the ravages
My anxieties race
through me at a difference pace, clutching at my lungs, my throat, making
it difficult to swallow or breathe. My childhood anxiety wasn't made up
of monsters in the closet, or fear of the dark. My anxiety was tied to
something which my parents could only haltingly save me from, something
which they toiled vigorously to save the entire family from: poverty.
The threat of falling into poverty, losing one's health, losing a job,
that looms over the working class creates particular anxieties, mental
health issues, and survival strategies. I learned to take care of myself
early because it was required. During much of my childhood, my parents
each worked two jobs, and I was often alone. Now in her fifties, my mother
faces health problems which I can only attribute to years of overwork.
I took care of myself.
I struggled. I got angry. Though the idea that I would go to college was
with me from a young age, there was no such thing as a "college fund"
to pay for it; my parents had no money to sent me to college. If I were
to go, I had to figure out the way myself. And I did. I became an incredible
over-achiever. I racked up academic awards, anxiety, and rage. I knew
I must always do more, be better, to prove myself worthy. I took nothing
for granted.
Education is like
a religion for the working class. It's the "way out." Of course, at the
present moment, that both is and isn't true. This news has reached even
popular journals, such as Spin, which reports in its October 1997
article on "Sucker Ph.D.'s":
More than one
third of all new history Ph.D.s will never find full-time teaching
work, according to the American Historical Associations' own newsletter,
paltry numbers given the mammoth amount of time you have to invest
to discover your fate. Across all fields, 40,000-plus students will
receive their doctorates this year. Few have illusions about what
awaits them: a handful of good jobs, each sought by hundreds of applicants;
university presses less and less willing to publish the academic books
needed to gain tenure; protracted separations from loved ones. Grad
school, an option nearly every halfway idealistic college student
contemplates, has become an invitation to purgatory.
This brings me to
the inevitable discussion of MFA programs. Camille Roy, in a recent discussion
on the SUNY Buffalo Poetics ListServ interestingly points out that when
she first came to the Bay Area, there were resources available in the
community for writers to learn more about their craft, such as the free
workshops offered by Bob Gluck through Small Press Traffic. Roy attributes
the current institutionalization of such resources into university MFA
programs, where people must pay for access, to dwindling funding for the
arts.
This is a very difficult
situation, and while it is true that few poor and working class people
will apply themselves to a graduate program, such as an MFA, which virtually
guarantees that they will not find a job, some institutions such as San
Francisco State University are historically very working class. Like other
working class folks, I worked full-time while completing my MFA in poetry
at State. It took me five years to complete the three-year program, and
during that time I endured a level of exhaustion and stress which had
adverse effects on my health. (I was almost hospitalized in the middle
of it in 1993.)
In addition, it must
be pointed out that not everyone enters such a program with equal amounts
of privilege, and completing a degree, while providing for the acquisition
of particular cultural capital, is not a great leveler. Working class
people are often worse off when graduating because of the massive student
loan debts they carry with them.
So why did I do it?
Because my working class heritage has imbued me with a stubbornness which
allows one small part of myself to refuse to accept that I am not allowed
to have what other people have just because they come from wealthy families
and I don't. I wanted to learn. I wanted an intellectual community. I
wanted a writing community. Are MFA programs the best answer to all of
that? Certainly not, but I did gain some of what I wanted in all three
of those areas. And I existed at State, much more than I did as an undergraduate
at Columbia University and Oberlin College, because I could look around
and see my experience reflected, and not feel so much the horrible grating
of isolation.
the passage of
place in desire a geometric
development heretofore
opposed to wake pronouncements
and sedentary acts the
startling possibility of collectivity when
money has everything and nothing to do with it "I'm
just trying to get us both on the same page"
People assume they
know who I am because I am white, because I am "educated," because I am
reasonably articulate. But my efforts to be "good enough" have been too
successful: they have helped to erase who I am. I pass so well, but you
look through me, and what you do not see says so much.
My own writing comes
out of those points of pressure and contradiction. The education which
introduced me to Anne-Marie Albiach, Gertrude Stein, Maurice Blanchot,
post-structuralism, and experimental narrative, also ensures that I am
a stranger to my own family. I now speak at least two languages. I cannot
forget, or erase, one in favor of the other in the difficult act of writing.
Amphibious, we live in both worlds, but belong to neither.
Writing which brings
to bear the full force of one's psychic, material (body and word) power
is not sweet or delicate. It is not "safe." To fully inhabit the world
of working class subjectivity in a poem requires that I withstand an incredible
emotional pressure. I scratch away at the codes or placeholders which
seem to want to denote class, and try to find what lies underneath. In
the face of silence, only my stutter.
While literacy is
certainly an issue when discussing the "accessibility" of innovative works,
I have sat with readers with high school educations and Ph.D.'s alike
while they encountered similar challenges and delights in unlayering a
poem. I refuse to assume or presume my audienceany audienceduring
my writing process. To assume that the "true" working class poem is only
a narrative exposition of working class "experience," is to buy into normative
reading patterns established by post-WWII academic poetries in the U.S.
This assumption precludes the full possibilities of language, isolating
working class poets to a particular kind of expressionism. It would be
difficult to find a parallel prescription placed on the depiction of class
in other art forms.
The difficulty in
discussing class and poetics reflects the larger obfuscation of class
within American culture. While Labor is becoming more visible as we near
the end of the 20th century, and the intelligentsia faces a job market
of dwindling opportunity and wealth is concentrated in the hands of an
increasing few, the myth of a "classless" society persists. (Have you
pulled yourself up by your own bootstraps lately?)
Too often, class
is conflated with race in a fuzzy-headed analysis that fails to account
for the conflicting privileges/oppressions of race and class. I continue
to believe that it is extremely valuable for white working class people
to speak out about their experiences and interrogate what it means to
live simultaneously not only with racial privilege, but also under economic
oppression. Exploring these kinds of contradictions is the only way that
theory will catch up with praxis.
As someone both white
and working class, I have often been painfully invisible, particularly
in academic environments where it was much more comfortable for white
academics to assume that I was "like them" despite evidence to the contrary.
One woman at Oberlin repeatedly insisted to my face, "You're like me?
your parents have money." The fact that I was not supported financially
by my parents was a foreign concept to her, and far too many others. I
had to insist on my own existence, insist on the right to my own experience,
and avoid being put in the position of taking care of their feelings of
guilt.
Writing is thievery,
as in stealing time. I will forever be envious of those who are afforded
the material conditions and privilege in which to write. Those whose parents
paid for them to go to college. Those who grew up blissfully unaware of
financial struggle. Those whose families are able to provide them with
a crucial safety net in times of crisis. These people have the things
that I always wanted, but will never have. I can't go back and change
that. I can only fight to harness my fear and rage in a way which returns
me to the page in a productive way as a poet who believes that issues
of power and privilege are of vital importance.
This essay first
appeared in tripwire: a journal of poetics, no. 1, Spring, 1998.
BIO:
Kathy Lou Schultz
was born in Burke, South Dakota and grew up in central Nebraska. She left
Nebraska at age 18 to attend Columbia University in New York. She finished
her B.A. at Oberlin College and earned an MFA at San Francisco State University.
Her publications include Genealogy (a+bend press, 1999) and
Re dress (San Francisco State University, 1994). She is a founding
editor of Lipstick Eleven and Duck Press.